"That's not who I am, this is me"

 HAVE THE COURAGE TO EXPLORE THE ESSENCE OF YOUR BEING. TO DISCOVER THE BEAUTIFULLY FLAWED INDIVIDUAL. WITH AS MUCH GOODNESS AND AS MANY FLAWS. To DISCOVER WHO YOU ARE, AND SOAK IN IT. SO THAT WHEN THE DEVIL COMES TO GIVE YOU A FALSE REPORT. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE. YOU TELL HIM BACK,

"That's not who I am, this is me"

Doing my traineeship, when we were being introduced to the "world", and its possible hostilities, we were told, " You will only survive in this industry when you know who you are"

For a while, I didn't know, just how being self-aware was everything. I'd go into places, and I'd take up all sorts of stuff, some were authentic some were awful truths. Some weren't. I'd focus on that, and that made me who I am. I didn't like it.

But I have taken the bold journey to rediscover. Who am I really?

Take a page and list all the amazing things about yourself and another page of flaws. As they say, the first step towards change is to be aware of your own BS. Sometimes it is you, dishing out negative energy and not others. But even in accepting that, to focus on growing the positives. And telling yourself all great stuff daily. There can be no enemy outside of you if there is none inside. Try telling yourself wonderful things only, you will feel amazing. I learned.

So in my own presence, I am self-respecting enough to tell myself the truth. To be aware of my own BS, and not judging myself for it, but loving even that, that is awfully unpleasant, but not using any of that to define myself.

I am aware of my drama, you can't be Kambe and not have a gene for drama. I am aware of my anger, but it doesn't make me an "angry person". I don't name-call myself, I don't tell myself bad things. I don't wait for people to tell me who I am, I inform them. That has been ultimately freeing.